Sick

Since Ike messed up this Christmas for me personally, it's given plenty of opportunities for the devil to work his way in my head. It's been a very sad few weeks for me and it seems that everything around me is sad. We did close on our house in Mauriceville, which is a great thing, but now we are living in a tight situation at our unfinished home. We were told Christmas it would be done and it's not near complete yet. It's very uncomfortable, and I know that's the bratty side of me speaking. I KNOW it could be a lot worse. It's just been 3 months of this and I'm starting to get sick of it. On top of being mentally sick of it, I'm home sick with a sinus infection and a stomach virus. I feel like I'm just being beat up from all angles right now and this Christmas season is putting me down. So many things to buy and I'm only 1/2 way done... 3 days before Christmas. Isn't this supposed to be about Christ that was born and spending time with family? I hate the devil and I hate feeling what he is doing to me. I love and enjoy buying for others, but I can't get off the pot long enough to even go to church today!
I've been sad lately not only with my living situation, but with not being a mom like should of/could of been this Christmas. Last night I looked on the Russian data base about the last referral we got (Daria), to see if she was still there. She gone and this makes me SO happy! I know that she has been adopted by someone and is no longer waiting for a family in a cold orphanage in Kemerovo. My prayer this season is that the Lord will give me peace. That He will open the eyes to all that are hurting around and that his AMAZING love will surround their hearts and minds. I'm looking forward to a much better 2009! Maybe I'll be a mom in '09!